Love

Dear Love, It's been a long time we haven't meet. What I mean is I haven't written about you.  I don't know if this is Right or Wrong? May be according to you it is Wrong so here are my thoughts for you !!!!!!! Some thoughts on the things you told me in terms of what is wrong and what is right! Who decides what is wrong and what is right? For some the color of my attire or shirt would be right, for some my dressing sense will be wrong. For someone my skin will be dark, for some my character, Stained! What is in between 'Right' and 'Wrong'? That's neither right, and wrong and if it's not right then why is it so? and if it's wrong, then why does it feel so right? If still loving you is wrong then why does it feel so right to me, and why does it feel wrong to you. Whatever was there between us why is that you feel wrong now and never thought it was wrong at that time? As for me it was purely Love and I still love you, even t...

It’s easy to die in one go but to die everyday and every moment or slow death is really difficult! However when she leaves you then you start dying everyday-every moment of your life and love teaches you to the path of slow death – Thank you !!!!!!! I was good before you came in my life, I know it was your first mistake of kissing me and wanting me to be near you, as that’s what made me to fall in love with you! I never loved you cause you kissed me and hugged me on that night, however I felt in love with you a girl who was really beautiful on that night, a girl whose Smile is still in front of my eyes, a girl who was so happy to see me at the Bar. I was still ok whenever I used to cry and now look at me, how I am experiencing the slow death from the time you have left me! I feel there is no existence of me, Dude in what language do I explain to you my condition from the time you have left me! I just feel unconscious from inside and I am not sure what I am doing in life, I ...

My Heart:  How are you, it's been a long time you haven't spoken to yourself? If you are going to say I am doing good then please don't try. Are you a bit loyal to yourself or you don't have loyalty with yourself as well? I am doing good!! Why are you living this lie as though it is the truth? Me:  (Pretending to smile Replies to heart) No-No, It's not like that  My Heart:  Actually, I know you are angry, you are angry with others, Angry on Her or him, for doing things and for not doing things. and these him or her have multiple name. Out of which one of them is Her. Correct? And you Love her the most, correct? Me:  I am trying to find mistakes I have made in my relationship, when I look back I see she also always tried to find reasons to get rid of me. What is it that someone should do if they get punished for a mistake which they didn't even do? I don't want any sympathy, I am not able to Cry, and Madness for her is still the sa...

If a person who loves someone without any reason and is constantly being wronged, and one day all of Sudden, if he says something or does something the same way he was wronged, Is he still a Good Person or is there now a bit bad in him? I have been wondering the same thing and I am not getting any answer as that night changed everything for me, someone whom I thought was the closest, told me that I am not even worth to be called as Friend and her other Friends are Far more better than "ME". Of Course they will be as they are your Friends and they never loved you the way I love you. The Story goes back to before I even thought of Loving her, I was living a very normal life and I had no Intentions to fall in love with anyone as I know there is No love written in my life. I still remember, when I broke up the last time my friends suggested me and said be careful here in this world of Love, care and Affection. They'd said that you are a foolish person and you easily fa...

I always thought Weird+weird= LOVE, however I was wrong. You know what, I was just looking at your pics and some stupid videos which I took and I really mean it that there is no one whom I have ever meet in my life, I thought I was in love with someone in past years however I realised that there's on one who can ever take your place NOW. The way you smile, the way you look ( not of course at me now a days) as you have a new Sweety. I always thought that you always knew that what I am thinking about (which was of course about you). The way you have hugged me when that's all what I needed. I want to cry and I want to die in your arms , I really never wanted much from you however just, LOVE. Never thought that this is what it will turn into, I didn't expect much from you. All I wanted it someone I could trust and I could call whenever I wanted and that also you took away from me :( I remember that you were the only one who told me no to trust that person who is very clo...

She thinks I am Fraud , Yes I am... I am a fraud as I loved her unconditionally, I am a Fraud cause I wanted to be with her for lifelong, I am a Fraud cause I never replaced you with anyone when I became useless to you, I am Fraud cause I am still thinking about you all the time, I am fraud cause I never thought of hurting you with my words or by any actions, I am Fraud as I always thought for your best and never thought of worst, even when every time and every single time you have just blocked me, removed me or kicked me when I was not needed. They say that for everyone in this world… God has made someone or the other, for each one You meeting me is a sign believe me…I always thought that I am made for someone like you…Some contact is there with you My life was engulfed in darkness…. Until U came with a ray of hope…giving a meaning to my otherwise futile life… I was just like a lost ship…. And I wonder how U brought me to the SHORE… am deadly sure we have a conne...

There are definitely many different phases of Love and this time I am not writing any sad break up saga or anything related #couplegoals, however I am sure whoever will read this will relate it to my previous posts. So, now I don’t want to talk to her, however I want to talk about only her. Dear life I have given my days to you however night is still all her. If I really get a free wish from god, then I really want to wish for her, As I am not sure why, but I only want to tolerate all the nonsense of her for her. She likes talking and I can call her a chatterbox , and in between she will go silent, She always wants to take control; she always wants to say the first thing and I know she likes it Her eyes are like an open bar, I just want to be a security guard of them, I just want you to put a bit of Collyrium, it’s not that I want to force her to apply Collyrium however I know she likes it The picture of hers where she has put one sided long scarf (Duppata), I...

Yes, it's time to say goodbye. Goodbye to my happiness, Goodbye to all the fairy world I have been living with you. It's not that I want to stay away from you, it's cause you want to stay away from me. and I see you are too happy with your own life. More of the positivity on your life which is good. I don't want your happiness and you can keep your "happy for you" wala thing with yourself. I have seen enough in last one week. Thank you for what you served me :D.  I have lived this kind of life before where I was compromising on my dignity for the person I used to love, I have done before also and now I cannot do the same thing. Never thought how and why things have changed, people said that I have never considered you as a Friend, Of course not!!!!!!! I love you!!!!!!! Thank you for what happened on 19th April :D. Yeah I shouldn't have taken his name, however I never thought that you feel I deserve worst and I remember you said that you are ...

The first time I saw you, I knew that some new काण्ड is going to take place in Life! I remember that night where it was raining, and I was trying to search that Bar to meet you! The first thing when I got down from the bus, my first thought was “Shit I am late”. Eventually I reached the place and I saw you sitting on the table and shouting my name loudly 😊 And And then, it was like a small child waking from sleep because of fear, Like I was being pushed from a tall building, my feeling was somehow like that! People talking nearby, dancing, Loud music and you in front of me! I remember there a Glass door and you were on one side and the other side was me, looking at you the way you were smiling waving at me however the point was you were not you, I wish that your presence was really like your presence for me. And today I can see that you have changed!!!!!!! The reality is in all the time I have spent with you I had always put all my sadness, tension a...

I have been shattered multiple time while she was in my arms, Knowing the fact that this moment is never going to be there forever, Knowing the fact that she will eventually leave me and kick me out of her life very easily 😊 like a unwanted piece of shit I remember those days when I have laughed together without any reason, and unknowingly and knowingly I have told her how much I need her, Although I couldn’t answer her question of “Why I love her so much”? However, I didn’t find it reasons to love her, as reasons to love changes and I never wanted to have any reason to love her…… Whenever I used to get angry, I always found her near me, whenever I used to get tensed, I always found near me....... I have never slept with her, I always got lost with her, lost in her eyes, lost in her face, lost with her presence next to me…. I wish that moment never passed by and I could relive the moment for the rest of my life....... I have never scratched her, I have scratc...

It’s been a year since I moved into this city, with all my dreams and aspirations. Now my dreams weren’t getting fulfilled as I’d desired, so I started penning down my thoughts. By the way my dreams are still under progress, however during this while, I met a GIRL  😊 One, who I hadn’t even thought I’d be with… in the wildest of my dreams And as they say....... “Every relationship is perfect in the beginning” and I always believed that We were a notch higher than perfection itself....... However, all the months, there has been unsettling issues between us. She belongs to some other city, and as they say.. If one person spends a long time at a particular place, then one gets fed up of the place....... And person And now she wants to leave and go away, So now she’s left it upon me to be with someone whom I don’t even Love....... Now I have written an Answer (ode) for her, But I know if I start telling her or reading out to her, She will tr...

It's about that time when I lost my love, the reason I am saying lost is because according to me she was always mine and I was always her however for her I am Mr. Nobody "A useless person".  So basically, like every person I am a lover who recently had a breakup or got to know that I was never her priority and she never valued my emotions for her or loved me. There is a special thing about people like me, they try and find time to remember the moments they have spent with the person they love. It's just a matter of few seconds where I was thinking that I will never remember her or think about her. So as my heart was trying to convince me that you should forget about her and try not to remember her as from long time you are trying to forget her. However, in few seconds even my heart replied “It’s ok let’s think about her” it’s just that the conclusion or end result has given you pain, you still have sweet memories saved with you!!!!!!! Next few minu...

Why is that I don’t understand, why? Why is that I am able to see everything in that one person and she is not able to see anything in me, why? Why is it that I want to see her, but I know I will not be able to see her again, why? I want to see her like my friend, my love, my better half, my partner in crime and my everything, but I know I will never see her again! Is it that she has found someone else that she never returned to me? Why is it that I feel that she loves me and considered to be her and then threw me into garbage in one second, why? As if there was nothing between us. Why is that she holds my hand every time she is with me and when I told her one day about this, She denied by saying I did it and she didn’t? Couldn’t she leave my hand or deny or would have asked me to stop it, why didn’t she stop me? Why she couldn’t accept that she was the one who wanted to hold my hand under the table, Why? Why is it that I always felt that she is only and...

ए मोहोबत मुजे ज़रा वक़्त लगेगा तु कभी मुजसे रूठना मत ! कुछ वक़्त खर्च होगा भरोसा दिलाने मे  कुछ वक्त खर्च होगा इरादों को मखसद बननाने में कुछ वक्त लगेगा तुझे पाने में हो सके तो तू रूठना मत मैं जानता हूँ तू मेरे लिए रुक नहीं सकती मेरी बातों में आकर तू फस नहीं सकती तू मेरे अल्फाज़ नहीं तू मेरे दिल की ज़ुबान समझती है मुझसे दूर रहकर तू हर वक्त मुझे परखती है जब मिलेंगे हम तो थोड़ा हस कर थोड़ा रो कर  दिखाऊंगा टूटते - टूटते सँभलने के हज़ारो किस्से सुनाऊंगा ए मोहोबत मुजे ज़रा वक़्त लगेगा तु कभि मुजसे रूठना मत ! मेरी कोशिशों को पहचान मिलनी बाकी है मेरे पागलपन का इम्तेहान अभी बाकी है पर तुझे पाने का जज़्बा अभी काफी है  तुझसे मिलने का ख्वाब अभी पूरा होना बाकी है खुदसे किया है जो वादा वह ज़रूर निभाउंगा तू मुझसे नाराज़ होजाना मैं तुजे शिद्धत से मनाऊंगा तू ठिकाने बदलती रेहना मैं तुझ तक पहुँच कर दिखूँगा तू बस थोड़ा सा सबर रखना, हो सके तो मेरी चाहत की कदर रखना ए मोहोबत मुजे ज़रा वक़्त लगेगा तु कभी मुजसे रूठना...

Do you love me? I asked this and she replied “No I love Someone else” The confusion continues……. A different person, when I see her and when I think about her.. A different person when I thought She loves me and when I loved her There was different color hidden in her face She was a different person when she is quite and different when a chatter box I saw her changing behavior while walking paths together She was calm like lake, but when I started knowing her, she was deep like an ocean full of secrets. You will never be able to recognize her Unknowingly she is different but when you know her, she is different Seriously, I’m confused she I let her go or hold her tight She is different if I let her go and she will be different if I hold her tight At times, she is an enemy, she is a secret holder and she is a stranger I love writing about her however whenever I pen down my feelings, she is way different in my though...